Tuesday, June 10, 2008

A New Kind of Normal

A very kind friend of mine just recently gave me this book. She heard the author at a women's
retreat and thought of our situation. It has been a good book for me to read
right now. Hard at times, because I am not ready to face some of the
struggles I'm dealing with. But, I just want to share a couple quotes from it:

"When I desperately want relief from unrelenting reality... I choose perseverance."

She could not have said it better. I find myself wanting to avoid the reality of our new life so often. It is in many little ways all day long. The fact is: This situation is hard for many reasons. ALL of which I am very aware of. ALL of which God is EVEN MORE AWARE OF. I am being challenged now to persevere through this.

One more quote:

"How do we get to the morning, to the sunshine, to the joy?
There is only one way. By waiting for it.
We can't hurry the dawn,
no matter how anxiously we pace the floor
or how impatiently we watch the clock.
And so the question is not, do we wait
or not wait, because waiting is all we can do.
The question is, How will we wait?
Will we wait well....or will we wait poorly?"
Ken Gire
So, while I still struggle with hope for the day, I can cling to something. I can lay something at God's feet. I can persevere. I am meditating on this scripture right now:
Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance, perseverance, character and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom He has given us.
Romans 5:1-5
It seems as though there is hope in my future.



i know that his current meds are putting him right back into a medicated state but i know its not for long. i want to take every opportunity to play when he can play and read every time he can only read and watch when he can only watch and be when he can only be. i don't think we will forget how he used to be but i think we can think about what it will be like when he's back even if its for just one day. i love you so much and i can imagine doing this without you close. i pray for you throughout my day and this blog is such a great reminder to focus my attention on someone else other then myself. i love you guys you are my constant.

the fam said...

praying for you and hayden! know that we love you guys and our hearts are breaking for you and hewitt.